so much more than it seems....

To many in this world, the two large boxes sitting on the floor in what is to be our baby's nursery would appear simply average and normal, just like another other package that one would receive.  However, today as I sat there looking at those boxes on the floor, to me it was so much more than that.  I can't tell you how many times when we were trying to conceive that I would sit in that empty room and dream of the day that would be working to make it into a nursery for our sweet little one.  Many times I would sit there, holding back tears wishing that I was doing so much more than just dreaming and wishing for a baby.  As I mentioned in my first post, the year plus of time that we tried for a baby came with many ups and downs.  In those times that I would sit in that empty barren room, I felt that it was a reflection of what was going on in our lives right at that moment.  I knew that someday all the things I was dreaming about would becoming a reality, but it felt like an eternity away.  Today looking at those boxes, I felt like it was a part of my dream coming to life before my eyes.  Those ugly brown boxes represent many hours of dreaming come to reality.  There are times when I still cannot believe that God has answered my prayer for a baby, and we are preparing for our sweet little angels arrival.  

As I began to hang up what is the beginning on many clothes to come for baby Dodge, it was a simple and sweet moment that I know I won't ever forget.  Again, another completely mundane task for many, but it was another answer to my heart's desire that has been many months in the making.  I can't help but sit and treasure every little outfit, and dream of how sweet and adorable baby is going to look in them.  I think of how their cute little face will look, and how I can't wait to squeeze them and kiss them.  I think of the mornings when Daddy will be getting them dressed in these clothes, and of the night times where I will get to snuggle them close and rock them to sleep kissing their sweet little baby hands, and my heart is completely over joyed.  I can't wait to continue to work on this nursery, and make it the perfect home for this sweet little answer to our prayers.  I plan to fully treasure each and every moment.